I used to think i was better than everyone
after i got saved. Check out my story here> NEW BIRTH. I will MOSTLY play the
judge game until when i started reading my Bible constantly and the Holy
Spirit reminded me that i wont help win souls into His kingdom that way. I had
to sit before the Lord while going through more learning process of how to be
kind to people going through a lot. If my (now Godfather, Mr Taylor Nazzal)
looked down on me and condemned me completely, i don't think i would have been
saved by Jesus Christ and who knows where i would have been today??? I was stubborn!!!
When i was
in the world , i.e deeply rooted in sin, i had the knowledge of what i was
doing was wrong but i was totally IGNORANT!!! WHY?? Cause my conscience was
deaddddd and the Holy Spirit CAN'T live in a filthy environment, so i was all
alone carrying out my business of destruction thinking i was hurting my 'already
ruined body'. Well..... yes i was hurting myself and i will run into places
hoping to find love and safety there only to come out drained and empty. I
needed to be loved. I needed true love but i was searching in the wrong
places... until i found Christ, my lover of life!
Now same
way our brothers and sisters out there that are lost and trying to find their
way back to Christ but don't know where to run into....
The other
day, i got off work a little late but superrrrrrr excited because i was hunting
for a new Bible with a different translation and i came across a very big
church. Each step towards the church i was already day dreaming how i can't wait
to love on this new translation only to be STOPPED by the gate of the church!
Why wont you let me in? They had a midweek service ongoing and the bookshop is
outside the building. And the security asked me to tie my hair in a scarf.
HUHH??? “I’m just coming from work, i don't have any scarf with me, i just want
to buy a Bible and leave. Nothing more”. And he further asked me to take off all
my jewelries too. WHYY?? Well it happened to be their church law and all...
After so much begging and crying and pleading he decided to walk in with me, by
almost scrubbing me on the wall and
hiding me in such a way so no one in the church will see me. Hahahahahahahaha i gotta laugh out my pains i thought to myself. BTW, What was i
wearing? A decent work dress. So after much dissolving me into the wall, we got
there and the bookshop was closed. I bowed my head down in sadness
and left :(
